Word Food by Deb (moved to jazzwater.com/elogos)

ELOGOS Word Food by Deb

4/23/2020

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​Modest Proposal by debgrant
 
I can hear my mother's voice say,
"Do you have to say everything on your mind, Deb?"
I learned that my thoughts weren't welcome.
I feared none were welcome.
I started listening more than I spoke.
Not a bad thing.
Not a bad thing at all.
I learned to stop my thoughts from leaking out.
I have never been completely successful.
When the escapees got me in trouble,
I imagined needing a guardian at the gate.
I enlisted the back of my teeth
to cross their cuspids and crowns
like bayonets to prevent my words
from flying into the air 
and detonating. 
 
Now I wish for a more high-tech solution.
Before I hit the send button,
could someone invent a half-way house 
or a holding tank
or a purgatory
where the words could sit
between good intentions and gut punch.
I would visit them again with questions.
Could they be received badly?
Could they be misunderstood?
Will they help at all?
What are my motives?
There is a satisfaction of hitting send 
but it is erased in the remorse 
of unintended hurt or humblebrag. 
 
An extra button would be nice 
after the satisfying SEND.
A button appearing on the next screen
in a moment
after the blood runs cooler on the
keyboard.
A button that asks "Is this who I am?"
 
Until then, I am my own collector of
thoughts and guardian at the gate. 
Until then, I take the risk to remain
silent and turn the weapons on myself
or take the risk to speak
if only to say
"Take care. I hope this helps."
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